Brokenness

"Brokenness has a way of allowing the supernatural into our lives in the same way that deep joy or great beauty do...brokenness doesn't automatically bring us to the thin place, or the sacred place where God's breath and touch are closer than our own skin. Heartbreak brings us to lots of places, to despair, to bitterness, to emptiness, to numbness, to isolation. But because God is just that good, if we allow the people who love us to walk with us right through the brokenness, it can also lead to a deep sense of God's presence. When things fall apart, the broken places allow all sorts of things to enter, and one of them is the presence of God." -- Shauna Niequist

Beautiful is the way in which God has been revealing himself to me. And that is out of my comfort zone. That is through my brokenness. This morning I heard a really, really good thing: God operates himself above our comfort level. This is definitely what I needed to hear. So often, I think of being a follower of Christ as being easy, being safe, and being "fluffy." NOT the case. Being a servant of Jesus means uncertainty, risks, and unpredictable predicaments. However, it also means inexplicable joy. Joy in which you cannot hope to attain any other way other than through the Giver of pure joy himself. Joy that shatters your heart. Joy that so overwhelms you that you feel you can hardly breathe you are so peaceful. This is what I seek. This is what I want. This is what He gives me.

I will be content. I won't give in to Satan's mysterious, sneaky nagging at my brain. Jesus already won, and I refuse to be sucked into darkness. Christ is my shining beacon of light. He is making me new, friends.

Beautiful is the way in which He displays his love to me. Beautiful is the way in which I see him, over and over again, when I least expect him. He is here, alright. He is here. He is crawling beneath my skin. He is flowing in my veins. He is filtering through my thoughts. He is ticking in my mind. He's got me. He's not going to let me drop.

"Why are you so downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." -- Psalm 42: 11

Much Love,
Molly